There must be a reason...
"I'd imagine the whole world was one big machine. Machines never come with any extra parts, you know. They always come with the exact amount they need. So I figured if the entire world was one big machine, I couldn't be an extra part. I had to be here for some reason. And that means you have to be here for some reason too." This is a quote from the movie, "Hugo" that we saw with Carrie and Derran the other night. I think it is quite perfect. I am completely unsettled with what I am doing with myself right now. I HATE TOC'ing, almost with a passion. I don't like not getting to REALLY know the kids. I hate leaving at the end of the day knowing that I won't be back. I don't like not having anything to take home at night, and read, and be PROUD of the work the kids have done. I hate going to be not knowing. Mostly, I HATE not having a plan. I am a planner, I like to plan ahead, vacations, purchases, local adventures...and I just don't kno...