From one of my students

I wish I had this kind of insight when I was 12 years old. It is hearbreaking that she has dealt with so much loss, but a gift that she has learned this lesson at such a young age. She writes:
Have you ever wanted to just go to a magical world like Narnia? Or live someone else's life? I have. I want to go to a magical place. Not where there's ponies that talk and oddly coloured animals, but I want to go to a magical place where all my dead loved ones come back to life, a magical place where they and I will never die. Where I can spend every moment with people I love and doing things I love. I won't have to be scared that one day I am going to get mad at my mom and dad early in the morning before they leave for work, then find out that it was the last time I saw them. For the rest of my life I would cry in my room, thinking of how I never got to say how sorry I truly was. Never ever would I see their smiles, or them cooking in the kitchen. I would always know how I never got to say good-bye.
Once you lose someone extremely close to you, you realize how when you walk away from them, it could be the last time you ever see them. I have lost many people and I always think to myself when I see their picture on our wall, "I wish I had told them every day how much I really loved them, because I never realized I could lose them." I always thought they would be there every day of my life. They would watch me graduate, see me get my first house, they were going to watch me get a job! And then those dreams ended with a phone call or a knock on the door.
I realized that I don't have a right to live for tomorrow, because each day is a gift. I have to make what I can out of each day I have, because I might not have another one.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Whitney Houston

This is going to be such a brief post, more of a drive-by rant, if you will. Whitney Houston died suddenly on Saturday. Her music has been in high rotation on my playlists for years, I can possibly even say close to two decades. I was shocked, and saddened by her death, which also led to disappointment.  I consider myself to be a very compassionate person, I feel the pain of others, and when someone dies, my heart aches for their families and for their loved ones. Whitney Houston had a tumultuous life, to say the least .She struggled with addiction, with abuse, and probably with a host of other things that the majority of us can not even begin to understand. After her death, just like after the deaths of other celebrities like Michael Jackson and Amy Winehouse, I am always so disgusted by the lack of compassion for others. One friend of mine posted on facebook, hours after we found out that she had died, that she does not understand how people can be shocked and sadenned when a dr...
Read more

Sarah Burke

Image
Canadian skiier Sarah Burke died tragically on January 19th. She had an accident training for the half pipe, on January 10th and severed an artery going to her brain. She was placed in a coma for 9 days, but suffered too much irreversible brain damage to survive. I must admit that I had heard of Sarah Burke and knew who she was, but never really followed her, or her husband Rory Bushfield's careers. She lives in Squamish, and when something like this happens to someone your age, so close to where you live, you can't help but pay attention. But this death has shaken me more than I would have ever expected. I have watched videos, read articles, and done so much research since her passing. I am truly, truly shaken, and a bit terrified. What she does is dangerous, and there are extreme risks involved. Risks that her and her family knew, but when you love something, you just take that risk. In one video of her and her husband, they say that the mountain is where they met, it's...
Read more

My Nanny and our Ava

In my last post about my dear, sweet Nanny, I was TERRIFIED (to put it lightly) about my Nanny moving into her new facility.  I was terrified to the point of emailing her new place JUST so they knew how loved she was and remembered to love her double time for her family, even though it is what they do and of course, they will do it well. My dear Ava has this love affair with her Nanny that I only wish Nanny could remember, but as my Auntie Sherri put it best, sometimes it is nice to be able to just live in the moment, and we should be thankful that Nanny has those joyous moments. I phone Nanny because of my own love affair with her, but I call her as often as I do, because my dear sweet, not-yet-two, daughter asks, and asks, and asks to call her Nanny.  And I am SO beyond relieved and thrilled that Nanny seems to be LOVING her new place. Every time we speak, she raves about her veranda, and how it is so nice that she can go visit with people when she pleases, but that she h...
Read more