Does the mind ever rest?
To answer that question, the mind in question is mine, and no, it does not rest. Ever. I don't always consider it a bad thing, in fact I don't usually, but as I logged on here to write, write, write, I am having trouble narrowing it down to what I actually to want to write about. I just needed to write. Over the last few weeks there have been things that I have thought in depth about, but didn't really think they warranted a blog post. Look at me, trying categorize me own thoughts as worthy, or unworthy!
We had our 20 week ultrasound a week and half or so ago, and that was very exciting, so exciting to be able to see the nose and the lips in such detail! We decided to not find out the sex, and that has brought forth a lot of "what ifs." Oooooh, if it's a girl, then......or Oh man, it would be so fun to have a boy to do this with...
I have been wondering what I would do with a teenage girl who came to her Mom in love with a man just like her Daddy. What would I think to see a young "Brady" interested in dating my daughter? The easy answer to that question is that I would be ECSTATIC! But to be honest, the teenage (even early 20's!) Brady Janzen and the teenage Kelly Watson were NOT a good match! Some might even say that we had no business trying to even be together back then, and I would probably agree, that back then it was not easy. I have a lot of not so good memories, of both things that I put him through, and things that he put me through - and as a teenager, or someone in their early 20's, they were things that would have, maybe even should have, been a clear sign that two people were just not meant to be.
But then I think about the Brady Janzen and the Kelly Watson in our mid/late 20's, and now in our 30's, and I KNOW that I wouldn't trade any of that heartache as a teenager or 24 year old, because the relationship that Brady and I were able to build in our later 20's is what I had been looking for, for my whole life. What we have had in the last 5 years is something that I could not trade, something that I could not live without, and something that I think women dream about having. To me, now, it is a match made heaven. But what would I tell my daughter as a teenager? I know that I didn't listen to what my parents thought, and I am glad for that, and I know they would be glad for that now too. But it would not be easy to encourage my daughter to follow in my footsteps, a path that was so difficult for so long - when at the same time, we know that people grow up, that they get better, that they learn from their mistakes, that their priorities change when they get older, and so on, and so on, and so on.
I have a bit of time before that happens, so won't think any more on it, but I think I had to get it down. Now I feel that what I wanted to write about before is just not that important anymore!
We had our 20 week ultrasound a week and half or so ago, and that was very exciting, so exciting to be able to see the nose and the lips in such detail! We decided to not find out the sex, and that has brought forth a lot of "what ifs." Oooooh, if it's a girl, then......or Oh man, it would be so fun to have a boy to do this with...
I have been wondering what I would do with a teenage girl who came to her Mom in love with a man just like her Daddy. What would I think to see a young "Brady" interested in dating my daughter? The easy answer to that question is that I would be ECSTATIC! But to be honest, the teenage (even early 20's!) Brady Janzen and the teenage Kelly Watson were NOT a good match! Some might even say that we had no business trying to even be together back then, and I would probably agree, that back then it was not easy. I have a lot of not so good memories, of both things that I put him through, and things that he put me through - and as a teenager, or someone in their early 20's, they were things that would have, maybe even should have, been a clear sign that two people were just not meant to be.
But then I think about the Brady Janzen and the Kelly Watson in our mid/late 20's, and now in our 30's, and I KNOW that I wouldn't trade any of that heartache as a teenager or 24 year old, because the relationship that Brady and I were able to build in our later 20's is what I had been looking for, for my whole life. What we have had in the last 5 years is something that I could not trade, something that I could not live without, and something that I think women dream about having. To me, now, it is a match made heaven. But what would I tell my daughter as a teenager? I know that I didn't listen to what my parents thought, and I am glad for that, and I know they would be glad for that now too. But it would not be easy to encourage my daughter to follow in my footsteps, a path that was so difficult for so long - when at the same time, we know that people grow up, that they get better, that they learn from their mistakes, that their priorities change when they get older, and so on, and so on, and so on.
I have a bit of time before that happens, so won't think any more on it, but I think I had to get it down. Now I feel that what I wanted to write about before is just not that important anymore!
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